I just finished going through my website and it spoke to me. On my homepage my eyes watered to read "Hold On. It's not over." You see a lot has happened since my last Note.
I was happy. I was hopeful. I felt great. I knew things would work out.
Then came the struggle. First, I lost most of my belongings when I stored my things in a storage unit. This company knew there was an issue with the pipe and didn't tell me so they took zero responsibility for what happened. I threw away most of my shoes so going into this cold weather I have no shoes to wear. On the plus side I get to go shopping, but that's not the point.
My life is changing and I feel like I am in a transition phase in my personal and professional life. I thought I was ok with not knowing. Do you know what it feels like when you work so hard to move forward; it feels like forever, but then I stand still and its like I haven't moved, not even an inch? Then you look around. Yes I am grateful. I go back and forth from being content to wondering what's next.
And on top of all of this I have been watching the news which reminds me why I don't like to watch the news. What's going to happen in 1o years with this climate issue change? What are we doing to our Earth? And then #MeToo, hm, women who speak up and then instead of believing us we are questioned. The irrelevant parts of our lives are used to discredit a truth. Questions requiring detailed information, but how could we and why would we remember every single thing. Wouldn't it be more suspicious if we could answer every single of your detailed questions??
Why am I writing this? Well, because I also have my bad days. I love my life with all my heart and soul...even so I still have bad days. This moment in time is happening for a reason and maybe I don't understand it but thats ok. I have to focus on being the light and shining. Maybe for now I am meant to relax, catch up on sleep, spend time with family, and finish school.
Got the world figured out?
I did, until it came crashing down. I had no choice but to start over and rebuild.